In this diary entry, I want to reflect on the saying "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade." It's a phrase that's often used to encourage us to find the positive in difficult situations. But I've come to realize that it's not always as easy as that. Sometimes, when we tell someone to "calm down," we overlook the fact that they might not be seeking calmness but rather a sense of validation for their emotions. Similarly, when we try to fix someone's sadness by telling them to "just be happy" or "it could be worse," we might unintentionally dismiss their feelings and the need for empathy and understanding.

I feel that I am better at giving help to others but not asking for help myself. I am better at supporting others in their tears but not letting them see me in mine. But I'm learning my truth, and there is power in understanding what needs your attention in helping you grow. Remember, no one is broken, but we all could benefit from our own personal inner healing.

I find it challenging when I'm feeling down or sad myself. I'm lucky that this has been seldom, but this year has been a hell of a ride. You could say challenging, but I don't like that negative language, so I'm gonna call it a character-building year.

Growing up, I was always reminded and told when I was sad, there are people who have it worse than me, which made me learn the response of feeling guilty when I was feeling sad or down. I recognize that I am privileged in many ways, but it's important to remember that others are more privileged than me also, and regardless of our status or situation, we all have the right to have a little pity party. It's okay for us to acknowledge our own struggles and allow ourselves from time to time to say, "Fuck you" to the challenges we face and express our frustrations.

However, it's crucial not to park there and to strike a balance. While it's okay to have moments of frustration and anger, it's also important to find healthy ways to cope with these emotions. Holding space for someone who is going through a tough time without trying to fix them is a powerful act of empathy. Likewise, holding space for ourselves and allowing ourselves to feel our emotions without judgment is equally important. Feeling sad without feeling guilty is something I'm still struggling with. However, I will continue to grow on my journey with this.

Journaling, writing my thoughts and feelings, has helped me not overthink. As they say, you need to feel to heal. It provides a cathartic release and helps you process your emotions. Some might find support in talking to a trusted friend or family member. Personally, I find more strength in talking into my auto journal or writing/typing in my journal. I prefer to be alone, and I find that I distance myself from people when I am having moments of sadness and self-pity.

Engaging in a creative outlet can be helpful too. Whether it's painting, drawing, playing a musical instrument, or engaging in any other form of creative expression, I like playing with my African drum or Tibetan singing bowls, or burning sage. This is usually after I've sat there for an hour having a big cry. I find this can be a great way to channel your emotions. I can only imagine what my neighbors think! Lol.

Practicing relaxation techniques: I listen to meditate music every night and do breathwork. Yep, these aren't a magic wand. I still end up having days where I'm like, "Fuck you Universe, why are shit things happening to good people?" But I think I'd be a hell of a lot worse without these techniques. Of course, my favorite thing, as many of you who know me well know, I'm a bit of a walk-a-holic. The weather hasn't been too enticing for me to want to get out and enjoy that lately. And my most favorite way of self-healing is a body scrub followed by a light therapy salt bath. Some people need to be around people when they're feeling sad. I need solitude, and I distance myself from people and the outside world. And I love a good massage and some Reiki healing.

So, Diary, today I want to remind myself and anyone reading this entry that it's okay to have a "pity party" and express our frustrations. It's essential to validate our emotions and allow ourselves to feel what we feel. But let's also remember to find healthy ways to navigate through these emotions and seek support when needed.

Here's to embracing our emotions, finding strength in vulnerability, and learning to make our own version of lemonade.

SO WHEN LIFE THROWS YOU LEMONS 🍋 LET ME SHOW YOU HOW TO TURN THAT INTO LEMONADE WINK WINK